the fear of "throwing under the bus" is such a weird, catch-y feeling, which I think you named perfectly here - for me it is sided up to the feeling of; why do I feel such a need to protect those who, perhaps, did not protect me? have i overcome this fear? no. but sometimes the above feels clear. thanks for your words Ashna (and happy belated!)
Thank you so much for reading, Katia, and for the birthday wishes! Melissa Febos' Body Work addresses this, and I think I'll be returning to that text to think through ethics and responsibility as I move forward...
the fear of "throwing under the bus" is such a weird, catch-y feeling, which I think you named perfectly here - for me it is sided up to the feeling of; why do I feel such a need to protect those who, perhaps, did not protect me? have i overcome this fear? no. but sometimes the above feels clear. thanks for your words Ashna (and happy belated!)
Thank you so much for reading, Katia, and for the birthday wishes! Melissa Febos' Body Work addresses this, and I think I'll be returning to that text to think through ethics and responsibility as I move forward...